The sacrifice is never knowing
why I never walked away,
why I play myself this way,
and now I see, you’re testing me;
pushes me away.
–Pushing Me Away, Linkin Park
Ever wonder how many times you have to ignore someone before they get the hint and just leave you alone? Well, if the person you’re ignoring is me, it might take a while before I decide to accept things at face value. And even then, it’s questionable.
You see, I have this rather ridiculous notion in my head that even if I’m being treated like shit by a “friend”, I’m the bad friend for walking away from the mistreatment. Or worse, I’m afraid of angering the other person by pointing out their actions.
How fucked up is that? I don’t want to upset the person who is upsetting/hurting me.
I hate burning bridges but if you get me worked up enough, I’ll light the fucking match with a smile…and sob as the flames consume everything I once cherished.
You were the one to stop trying, to stop communicating, and I’m the one who is finally letting go of something that no longer exists: our friendship.
You were right; you do suck.